Aimless wanderings

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The other day, I had enough time to just enjoy it. I got up without a plan and simply made my way through the day. Well. That makes it sound easy. It wasn’t. I kept thinking I should be doing something. And I suppose was. Doing something. It just wasn’t what I usually do, which is being planned and productive. 

That day, I allowed myself to just wander through time, enjoying the warm weather, the green growth in my flowerbeds and occasionally having a cup of tea. 


It was rather nice. Except it felt so strange to me. 


I think I need more practice. 


I’ll put it on my list: Wander more. Be aimless more. Enjoy more. 


I think that’s a plan. And I can live with that. 


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A Post a Day in May No. 26 For the past two years, I have posted something to this blog every single day in May. This year, I hope to do it again. 


Photo by Henri Lajarrige Lombard on Unsplash 


Comments

  1. AnnMay 26, 2021 at 6:31 AM

    Are you practicing for retirement? If not, you should be. The first year was very difficult for me. I didn't quite know what to do with myself after forty years of scheduled days.

    So I volunteered for hospice, along with my newly qualified therapy dog, Toby. Before long we had a case load of 6-8 patients, and I found myself once more going to "work." That's not the point of retirement. I certainly wasn't enjoying any wandering or aimless enjoyment.

    But after a couple of years and the death of a patient to whom I'd got very attached, I cut back. That's when real retirement began.

    I just realized I have posted here every day in May! I'll be sad when June arrives, even with the roses, which I'll take time to smell.

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    1. Amanda Le RougetelMay 26, 2021 at 7:29 AM

      indeed, yes. I am looking ahead to retirement from full-time work. No time like the present to plan for it, eh!?

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  2. danielle-momoMay 26, 2021 at 6:58 AM

    Yes, practising is the key for something that does not come naturally. Allowing yourself to enjoy something you really like even if it isn’t useful or goal oriented is a beginning.
    You can wander, be aimless and enjoy once in a while, then once week, then once a day. And why not all day long ?

    I need to add: when April came , I asked myself if you would do the May challenge . I’m very pleased that you did. I enjoy reading you every morning .
    At the end of this month, like Ann, I’ll miss your daily posts .

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    1. Amanda Le RougetelMay 26, 2021 at 7:30 AM

      Thank you for the sage advice, Danielle. And I have been delighted to have you as a reader again this year. Merci!

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  3. BarbaraMay 26, 2021 at 1:07 PM

    Being happy, enjoying what you are, where you are and who you're with, adds good energy to the world. Enjoy the small miracles, a great cup of coffee, the pattern the sun makes through the trees, the warmth of a home, hot and cold running water, beauty anywhere and everywhere. Live in the present, a master at this is Thich Nhat Hanh, he's one of my favourite people in the world and he's brilliant at mindfulness. One of his quotes: Because of your smile, you make life more beautiful.

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